One Precious Life...

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Photos

oops...looks as if i ate too much...

the YoYos and Random at Sakae Sushi

the 3 criminals who lied to me....hahaha
The green tea frap and caramel marc which Jessica and i drank while waiting for "nicholas"

me with elmo head...
yummy chawanmushi...it's like...whooohoo...silkly smooth steam egg...
haha our designer's ice cream..
ohh...drinking yakult at (Sakae sushi, $0.99 each), thinkin it'll digest so we can stuff more food into our stomach...hehe
*tink*...sooo nice pics right?hahaha...credits to jasline!!

3:40 AM ♥

So Suprised

random 2 decided to blog today!!too many things are happening recently...
on sat, the dance production went really well, really glad it was over however sad that it's over too. because the process of it was really fun, i enjoyed working with all the dance peeps,every single one of them. it's the togetherness i miss..well we're goin to the zoo this sunday *smiles* hahaha i love the zoo, the animals are just amazing! hahaha can't wait for that day...
well after the 2nd service performance, we went to attend the 2nd service. God touched me deeply that day during sermon and worship, 2 things hit me- God has always been waiting for me to go back to him, another thing, God doesn't care about anything else except to get me back to him.

i heard 'when God ran' a thousand times, but with this new understanding, it melt my heart again. during worship God whispered " now you know my child, how much you mean to me" i cried at this point with whisper in my heart saying "yes God, now i know"... i'm awed by how much i mean to God! he has been waiting and on a look out for the past 13 years of my life, ALL ALL ALL he wants is to have me back. yes, is to have his child back....

well, after all that i was DEAD...seriously tired, cos on sat morning this kind soul sacrificied some sleep to make breakfast for the dance team, but she doesn't regret it..okie tired for a good reason. that day West C broke 40!!! all thanks to God and all the hardworking faithfilled peeps of West C!! my heart was FULL of gratitude towards God for all that he had done, a year ago, my group was only 15? strugglin to hit 20, God has done so so so so so much! i don't deserve it, it is God whom worked through me! God be glorified...credits to people whom worked hard to win lost souls too!!....my heart is still going out for the lost souls whom deserve to know----someone paid for their sins....

Sunday? haha was suppose to wake up at 8am to meet fong yee, dewen n tricia for tennis, i woke up at 1030 instead and still was in serious lack of sleep (k i'm old already). i ended up meeting fong yee and dewen for lunch at lot 1, ohhh we finally ate pizza at pizza hut, fong yee craved for this for like weeks? hehehe...yums

we went shopping later in town, but oops...we wore like we were buying snacks from our provision shop downstairs, absolutely failed in dress sense to shop in town. and the worst was, we went to mango! hahaha yah, but anyway i still bought a pair of jeans and top from it!! so happy!!!

i went to ah ma's house for dinner and to lao yu sheng, kind of late but it was cos we had left overs. only my 3rd aunt and my family was there...before leaving i went to the toilet and ah ma asked if i was inside, when i opened the toilet door, she pushed me in and closed the door (what was she doing?) hahaha she handed me $400 and said it was for my orlando trip, she added saying i cannot let my 3rd aunt know (family politics)...hai~so touched my that act!!...i will use this money really carefully...

another long story to tell..hahaha this was a huge surprise with my dear yoyos and random planned!!k..here's the long story
1045, met Stacie to do our CNCC letter, i told her i was meeting jessica and pascale and nicholas (another ex classmate) at 1pm...but i really didn't wanna go at first cos i'm not close to nicholas. okie stacie also said she was meeting her 'fren' at town too..k...so we seperated at somerset station, she headed to orchard. i met up with Jessica and pascale woke up at like 2pm?hahaha nicholas? ohh he was late for unknown reason,

Jessica and i proceed to get her cosmetics at ettusias and we went to starbucks. okie nicholas was suppose to appear but Jasline gave a suprise at my back!! oh i realised nicholas was an excuse and hahaha the yoyos and random planned a suuper early b'dae for me!!hahaha...so touched by it! this is e first time i was SUPRISED!!...

we ate at Sakae, the buffet was fabulous!!!yummy yummy!!!

to YoYos and Random:
thanks so much for elmo! he's so bouncy and cute!! hahaha i really appreciate you gals! love u alll sooo much! each and every single one of u gals take a place in my heart!!i'll miss u all for 6 months except my random..hahaha all the best in all ur attachments! have fun in them and share with me n random ur experience man! can't thank you gals enough (:

2:24 AM ♥

Monday, February 25, 2008

Photos=)

this wasn't just a normal pose...they are trying to show how poor thing they are:) cos they've got bruises all over their knees...eww. but thank God for them

this was from dewen! thank God for him:D

oh this is even sweeter...5 roses from fong yee! so touched by it

oh chia ling...hehehe the world's fasters clothes changer..

oopss..i'm not a lesbian..jency expressing her love for me..hahaha

sexy girls...our pose for loose my breadth..

this is our opposing 'gang'..

another shot of them...

the entire dance team:D really love them, most of my close friends are from this team! i enjoyed every part of the team work with them:D

oh...shane's like our 'god'...hahaha

some snap shots while preparing for the entire thing

our hair stylist doing nian's hair

making up for everyone

this is our lead...Yu nian:D

another shot of my girl gang!!thank God for u gals:D u gals rock!!

1:51 AM ♥

Friday, February 22, 2008

Something I've got from Jacq

i miss u. i miss the times when we spent tgt. i miss ur undivivded attention. i miss those days where i am always placed first. i miss those days where u would do anything for me even to the extent of pain. i miss those days where u would just say u love me, me only. i miss u. i miss u dearly. i cant help but to surpress my desire for u. i yearn for the touch u gave and the days where the world is jus revolving between u and me. these times spent is irreplaceable.

i never wanted to live so badly.

i can only say it is gone. i can only say i choose not to have u. i am having intense regret for the pressured decision made. i chose to walk out on u, i chose to avoid u, i chose to jus live in pretense. T.T i doubt ur existence.

i stopped living. i cant celebrate with u when u had victory nor can i smile at u to say u did it. i chose to turn away from u. i chose. the choice i made had put me in great misery and had turned me into an emo-tian. pain is an understatement of what i am feeling; i can only feel-- NUMB.u never fail to surprise me and move me with ur deeds. i always feel belonged each time i am embraced. but all these are GONE, GONE, GONE.

when u are gone, my heart's misses u.
when u are gone, my mind's failling too.
when u are gone, my world came crashing thru the day.
when u are gone, i think i will never be okaes.

BUT..i'm glad i made this choice.i'm glad i din go on further. i'm glad i chose to stop. i'm glad u just got cast away. for i never knew what could be in place if i hadnt choose this way. i was almost ruined when all seemed to be the end of me. there was no turning back but i am thankful i am found once again. it is his grace that pulls me thru the day. saying to rehab is a torture for addicts but to abstain is a breakdown for me (pulseless). everyday was the yearning for the touch, the attention, the words, the call-- just yearning for u. wonder if drugs are ever as strong. but each day passes with a new beginning and i am glad i was bleached with grace. i am grateful for the life i was given.

i never wanted to live so badly.

in all paradise...truth prevails.escapism is never a backdoor. u can run but u cant hide. light rays jus shine to judge. when it is day, shame never fails to be around. i took forever to lift my head high and again. i cant seem to hear what he had to say. all i am clothed with is disgrace. wretch and whore, i cant seem to find a line. i am all tt it describes. how did i ever fall into this route? i cant hear him anymore, dun even mention a whisper, i cant hear him at all. is this the end of my life?

i never wanted to live so badly.

salvage a worthless piece-- impurities.when all seem lost and life is tossed, i finally hear a whisper, i finally see a beam. i can never unds how live can be so free. i am not chained i am............. FREE! confession is pain but forgivenes is sane! it does exist! it does say u may live, it does say u are free. i can breathe again. i can feast with saints. i dun feel condemned, i dun feel ashamed. not anymore. i can re-live. i can express freedom once again.

i never wanted to live so badly.

BUT with the expense of someone whom i never knew loved me this much. the scarred hands gave me a second chance. the scar that serves as a yardstick for the rest of my life. and now... these scars in me allows second chance for many who are like me. it is time to hear tt whisper, it is time to see that beam. it is time u say,

i never wanted to live so badly.

4:10 AM ♥

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

God doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the call

oh i had a new hair cut..didn't quite like it at first but i'm beginning to fall in love with it
i cut it at far east for $30 (wash,blow,straighten and cut)
i love stage!! stage=xiao zhu,show lou. sadly, this cap doesn't belong to me..it jacq's
oh this is me and denise acting dao...haha and this is our ESS hello love's outfit
this is yen li and denise..acting dao too
ohh haha i'm frequenting my blogging habits. Praise the Lord cos our dance IS progressing, our steps are really well choreographed, i personally like the entire production alot, exciting, very exciting! i felt that every single production we did, it really is the best, meaning we are growing from glory to glory.. we're like 3 days away from the real thing. thinking about it invites butterflies into my stomach.

anyway yesterday i met my clique for our slumber party. we went to Minds Cafe in the afternoon. we played Taboo, Ugly Ugly Ugly, Animal Game and The Game of Life Simpson. Jessica brought her boyfriend along, so hahaha he's part of the Random company, so it's not that bad playing with him. i was his Taboo partner twice and yeah i'm just bad at it so is he, hence, we lost. but it was really fun,Ugly Ugly Ugly n the Animal Game was voilent, Jessica screamed really loud haha. In the Game of Life, christine's the richest! hahaha i've got like 1.3 million at the end of it, feels good but well, it always goes in back into the box. well life is like this too, no matter how hard i try to win or try to earn or how much i achieve in career, it ALL GOES BACK into that box. when i lie in that coffin, everything returns back to zero. i can't hold onto any single thing.
i don't mean i'll not do anything with my life, but i'll invest in the things which i can still hold even after i die, that is souls whom i'll meet in eternity.
ohh okie continuing about my slumber party, i went for WAM night after that. learnt that dances really gotta be aware of pride etc, i agree..stage ministry is a glam ministry. we got to really guard our hearts. this talent is given by God and would be used to glorify God as well (:
following that, i went back to jasline's place and played majong!!whoa..it's a very fun game, but very addictive too. i won quite a fair bit..we didn't use money but chips, the loser had to finish up the leftover fish.

today after dance, apinun me and yen li went for dinner. we began talking about the issue of BGR. i do agree that it is possible to manage self spiritual life, studies, ministry and this relationship. however, it is still the line between best and better. the best is definitely to give full devotion of our youths to God now. the right guy will come somehow. and i made a promise with God long time ago saying unless i'm able to let God everything and know that God can full satisfy, i'll not get attached. i don't want to rely on someone else more than i rely on God. plus, we come together to do MORE...it's more than just to help one another. so that's the reason why i am still single....an estimate of the age of getting attached? 25? yeah..no rush...

last sunday we went for ULM and God reminded me about having a child like heart and faith towards Him. yep one that is not stained by the sin and fully devoted to God. my obession? the love of my entire life? God...hahaha sounds crazy but well, this is the only obsession that doesn't harm=) that ULM was special, we watched a teaching on video by Bill Hybels, he's a preacher and pastor of Willow Creek Community in the States, i'm his big fan! the title of the teaching was "the power of clarity". the one thing a leader owes his or her followers? clarity...
the clarify of the messgae: Substitutionary Atonement. someone atoned for all our sins, we NEED NOT, absolutely need not do anything to pay back. Jesus foot the entire bill! isn't that awesome? yeps, people really really really matters to God!

tml i'll be sowing on this Jurong Ville sec 2 girl, cool! praying that it'll go on well..yeah! i'll blog soon, really soon....once again! come for Hello love or being someone there! 23 March, sat. 1215 or 230 at Cuppage Plaza. i'm dancing=)

1:49 AM ♥

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Planning Day...

ohhh...my brother and papa:D handsome brother? hahaha look like me?
talking about my brother, i want his hairless hands n legs, i want his slim figure n his height=S k i've got all the opposites ;(

hehehe sweeeet couple^-^
so forced to take this pic..
me and my beloved dad
mummy n me:D so i look more like my dad or mom?

My dad loves to take pictures with us! oh so sad, we can't have a full family pic cos there's no one to take it for us. really love this physical family i'm given! though none of them are perfect, but i'm very very thankful for that! my family and i caught the movie CJ07. The little alien dog is just soooo cute, it was a very touching movie. the tearing factor was 5 out of 5 stars ****** however, my dad said that it was a waste of money, he's disappointed. i personally felt Ah Long Pte Ltd's much much better.

anyway recently, my heart has been burden for many people. it seems like my compassion level was raised for people. this new year, i met my grandparents, i just suddenly realise and observed how old they look, the amount of white hair they have now, the number of hair left on their head, the amount of energy they are left with.....it gave my heart a squeze. as i look at these people around me, i felt just so upset for them because i know that they are not living that meaningful life which God has for them. it is like living just lesser than what's made available for them...i can't fully describe how i've been feeling for people recently as i look at them and as i pray for them....

this makes me even sure that i Need and Have to tell them about Jesus...

Moving on to today. It was a 'planning battle' day, spent 2 hours with dewen plannin for my group, another 2 hours planning for West Anniversary with yong mei and Regina...Woohoo...a pat on my shoulder for that! hahaha i've planned to my best..the rest is really up to God! yeah! oh soo after that, i went for 'retail theraphy' with papa. i entered into Mango in Isatan, i tried on mango jeans and a top which i really liked:D BUT...they didn't have my size for both the jeans and the top:( okie, so i bought nothing? nope, under my dad's pressure....i broke my shopping records---i bought a pair of palms within 15mins. i saw it, took a min to think if i should get it, tried it on and bought it. it feels pretty uneasy doing impluse buying, hahaha but thank God i really like it. well i guess everyone hates regretting getting something which u've never worn. i always felt that good food ends the day really well. My Dad brought me to eat at koufu's japanese cuisine stall. oOoo the Katsu Don was yummy...$8.80 for a main course, with a side of your choice with a cup of green tea----a good deal(:

smiles to God for this day ^-^

2:00 AM ♥

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Liberty to Christine!!!

3 Whoosss to Christine for finishing 7 projects and 5 theory papers in a month plus 5 days!!that was amazing, beyond my capabilities. really thank God for His presence in my life
motivation- when i just don't feel like it
strength- when i've go 0% energy in my tank
focus- when i've got too much on my plate
comfort- when i panic which i always do =S
more than that gotta thank my dearest sheep (someone i take care of in church)----->Fong Yee
on the morning when i had to take my destinations paper, she appeared like an angel at my door with 2 breadtalk bread, 2 lao pao bing and a bottle of starbucks mocha. i practically melted, felt so so enouraged to do even better for my papers! k my love language is acts of service, this act i'll remember ALWAYS!! This girl will be so blessed and honored by God because she takes care of her leader, when she honors her leader, she's indirectly honoring God!! Market Value---+1000 points. hehehe...selling my sheep..oops=p
there were always sms like from yan ming, yong mei, jolene, wendy, ting n jency n dewen, not forgetting my study partner--pascale, those encouragement meant loads to me. they are all friends i know i can fall back on....thank God for them:D

hahahaha anyway i am SSSSOOOSSSOOOSOOO glad all this exams thinggy is over!! i didn't felt such freedom for other exams, but for this one, cause it IS the toughest i've ever been through, 7 projects straight and it's 5 theory paper, my memory disk was FULL woohhoo..gotta think of a way to mass delete all these.

a small but cool testimony:
the night before my last paper i was down with a bad flu with headache and i've gotta memorise all the theory. try that, feel buring the paper and drink it down and like just sleeping, praying that i will somehow know everything the next morning.
there's this part 15 definitions!!!!i memorised it all, the next morning while brushing my teeth God just promted me and i tested myself for the definition of 'congress' ohhhh no i can't remember, i look through my notes before entering into the hall and took note of congress.
yep yep, out of that 15, 'congress' came out!! u say it's luck? hmmm can't be...too lucky...haha

k how's CNY? k...can't be bad like mine:
1. sick- can't eat all that good yummy goodies...still i ate n drank ALOT...ate medicine n drank water, loads of that!
2. look ugly with a yan zhen, k if u've seen me recently u've know...yucks...look UGLY
3. Cash rich time poor- i've got loads to spend but no where to spend it, i totally didn't have time to shop for new year *sob sob*

it's not really that bad....on eve i went to countdown at china town with my dad n bro (yearly tradition) this is the crowd...but its fun! 1st day of new year i met my cousins and extended family...praise God, i clique with these 2 closer cousins, 1 in NUS studying chinese lit, preparing to be a chinese teacher, 1 in NP studying business this cousin is my twin, we're born on the same year,month and day, i was 2 hours earlier than her, but apparently she's smarter n prettier...haha 3.9 GPA holder!!k...hahaha tong ren bu tong ming ahh...
NP has overseas intern in Taipei!!!! my eyes brighten when i heard that!!...like *Tink* ahhhh...i wanna go. i was telling her...go Go GO! she's also a taiwan drama fanatic so taiwan's like e ideal place to work!..oh exciting huh..
oh and i played with the little ones :( sad that i can't play longer with them...his litle cute girl is vivien...hahaha

moving on.2nd day spent my entire day doing a FOC fashion show in town with ting, fong yee, eugene, kenny and zheng kai...walking up and down, hahaha watched Ah Long Pte Ltd, Storyline- ** 2 out of 5 stars, humor ****4 out of 5 because i agree with dewen, only singaporeans can appreciate this. but i practically laughed througout!!it is hillarious...outside the theaters was this huge Garfield..lazy cat...snap a shot with it

today's service was packed. hahaha hang out a little with my very good n close friend--yen Li..this is me n her. she's someone that i understands n whom understands me really well..hehehe miss hanging out with her
did a little shopping in bugis today, hmmmm really nothing much. i feel like i loose interest in shopping, nothing seems like what i want. anyway it was suppose to be like 10 of us, in e end, all P.Sed us, leaving me, kenny and mei mei. we were half dead, dragging ourselves there, we charged our batts at starbucks,we prayed for sofa seats and God's just sooo good. i drank Green Tea Frappe...i'm fallin in love with it Stacie Mum!!
then ting, fong n mei came to my place n slack...we shared quite a fair bit and kept changing the clothes ting just bought at bugis..had loads of fun with them...

the Dance production's coming up....i know it's not the professional kind but it's everyone's effort...come n watch k? it's 23rd Feb 1215pm-215pm...i'm really excited to see how everything would piece up to become!

2 months and less before i leave...i'm seriously starting to miss all these people around me, every little thing in Singapore seem to be so extraordinarily beautiful, the night, the food, the sky....hahaha i'll make sure everyone in my group is growing n doing well....these people are my responsibility and my joy ^-^

2:33 AM ♥